Sick of Being Sick

This past weekend, I was laid up in bed with a mild case of the flu. I could function, but not well. Lol! Interestingly enough, I took the hint and slept as much as possible. This is surprising because I usually push through things like that and tend to make things worse - go figure! 

Three days in bed gave me a lot of time to think. Real T, I have a bad case of “imposter syndrome”. You know, that irrational fear that I am a fraud in everything that I do and it’s just a matter of time before the entire world figures it out? THAT imposter syndrome? Lol! I think most people have that to some degree. At least I am aware that I do it. 

But that’s the problem with being sick. The best thing that I could do for myself was nothing. However, my inner critic was telling me that I was lazy and not doing enough as it was. A REAL artist would still get work done. That voice is what made me push myself and ignore what my body needed. And that usually just made things worse. It took longer to recover which was ultimately time lost. So this weekend I stayed in bed. 

I’m still taking it slow, but I’m itching to get some work done. I have fallen off track a bit in my social media and goal planning. But, so what? The only schedule that I need to keep is the one that I create. My biggest fear as I was laying in bed trying to take care of myself was that I would give up. I was afraid that if I lost momentum, I wouldn’t be able to get it back.

That’s not happening this year! I am learning from my missteps and putting myself first. This year is about living my best life and doing what makes me happy. I will not apologize for resting because I was sick. Nor will I let it stop me from slaying 2020!! 

Oh! And I hope you enjoy these pics of my babies! This was the upside to being stuck in bed!!