Still a Long Road Ahead

So, here I go again, trying to blog. On again, off again. Journaling has always been like that for me. I really do have the desire to write my thoughts. Frankly, it's good for my mental health. However, inevitably, my old companion, depression, comes in and it takes over everything.

When depression comes calling, I begin to withdraw from everything. The only thing that I'm left with is me. I retreat into my head with only the circling negative thoughts and anxieties as company. It becomes a catch-22 that is difficult to escape. After all of this time, getting out of this spiral is still a work in progress.
So why come back to blogging? Why now? I still have demons left to exorcise. Taking care of my mental health is an ongoing project, but that's not a bad thing. I truly do believe that communication is a key part of that for me. Before I began to withdraw this time, I was working a lot and excited about the future. I felt the most creative that I ever have and was really embracing my authentic self. I had my art. As I saw the future that I had imagined crumble, I lost faith in myself. And so the spiral began.

As I feel my creative spark re-igniting, my fingers are itching to create. But the process is slow and I want to be patient to see where it takes me. My mission has been to highlight mental health and strive for healing. I believe that practicing what I preach is important in that objective. Going forward with my art and my truth, I want to name my fears and expose them to the light. No one should be alone on this journey, so I wish to share mine. I want to do this not only for myself, but also so others can see that they are not alone.